Goodnight Sweet February

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Fourth track on "Ours".

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Goodnight, sweet February. One more time has passed. A wish left unfulfilled, a future left uncertain. Goodnight, sweet February, with similar grave strife, and weights upon my shoulders that I'll have to carry through.

Why does misery look right in front of me, and utilize disguises that manipulate my fate? It's easier to hate than it is to accept, and it's easier to lie than it is to love.

Goodnight, sweet February, though you're wrapped around my brain, like an arm surrounding waist, or a light surrounding faces. Goodnight, sweet February, though you took away my hope; a hope to be much stronger, and a hope to be with you, my dear.

And our souls' precious moments have seen their better days. Distant memories are evaporating slowly. And our eyes have seen the fortune, the brightest mirroring. Distant memories are dimming down so slowly, cause it's easier to hurt than it is to improve, and it's easier to leave than it is to keep.

- Spoken Word -

It's already been a month since I've talked to you last, and although our time apart has made me feel a lot better about everything that happened between the two of us, it also gave me a lot of time to think. It's currently February 25, 2017, and yet I still have so much to say, and I still have so much to feel.

You entered my life at a very special time. At a time when I was ridiculed by arrogance. At a time where I felt underappreciated by everything. At a time when friends were falling away fast from their circles. You were there to help me escape all of these things. But now, I believe that, deep down, I have once again fell victim to these circumstances, and that you are unaware of the suffering that you have created for me.

I remember this deep, black, autumn night very vividly. There were fireworks illuminating the sky, and you were standing right next to me. While they were launching, you told me how you used to go to Indian Lake on the Fourth of July, and how they held their own shows. All you did was lay in the middle of the fields, body against grass, while they would travel up into the air. The colors would spark so extravagantly that it felt like you were seeing them from ten feet away. And I immediately began to think about how much I wanted to go with you next summer, and that, just the two of us, would sit against the stars, and watch them shine onto our cheeks.

Now, I understand that I'm not the most perfect anybody, and what nobody knows is that I constantly create these love scenes within my head; these irrelevant daydreams where I just look off into the distance and memorize a picture of a chapel and an ocean and a field and a bed. I admit, I'm lonely. But I never felt that way when I was around you. When I saw you the day after my birthday, and we just talked about everything that was on our minds, I started to feel these things just pour out into reality. But that wasn't reciprocated, I guess.

Our everything was special to me, and I immediately knew that after I found out that you were not genuine, we would never be the same. I don't know - maybe I'll be free one day. I don't know when such a day will come, however. But I hope that someday, I'll be able to stand upon these two feet, gaze into the world far beyond me, and do nothing else but smile.

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from Ours, released May 16, 2017

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Blue Navy Windber, Pennsylvania

Blue Navy is the ambient/slowcore alias of artist Jake Dryzal; he writes haunting, introspective lyrics that are sung alongside heavily reverberated guitars, warm synthesizers, and occasional drums, piano, and strings. His newest album, Ours, was released on May 16, 2017. ... more

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